Ramblings of a Nearlywed

So here I am, two days before the wedding...working. There's a lot of stress going on right now. So many things to do, places to be, people to talk to. All I can say is thank goodness I have tomorrow off. There are still so so so many things to do. I can't stress that enough. I'm realizing that I'm a pretty big control freak. I feel like it would be easier if I set up everything myself. I think most brides feel that way. Things are getting crazy. At times it feels real, then other times it doesn't. Right now it's the latter. It's hard to keep everything in balance. People are getting mad at me left and right and it's pretty exhausting. I can't make everyone happy. Saturday is my day. If I can't have what I want on my wedding day, when can I? I probably sound like bridezilla. This is the one day Karl and I have to shine as a couple. Our style and our personalities are evident through the decorations, even if most people don't get it or like it. I'm a little bit of a stress case in case you couldn't tell.

In case you haven't heard yet, Karl and I will not be getting married in the LDS temple. My Uncle Earl is a judge and will be marrying us at Murray Park. It's not a scandal and it's not shameful, despite what a few people think. Ya, it's not what I planned nor what I ever thought would happen, but life thus far has never happened according to my plans. We will be sealed in the temple a year from now. That is a plan that will definitely come to fruition. I feel good about it. I have a year to prepare to be sealed to my husband. We have a year to prepare together. Still, it's hard to see people's reactions when I tell them. Most of the time it's just an uncomfortable, "Oh..." but occasionally it the scornful "I told you so" look. So that's hard and an additional stress to worry about, but I'm doing well. Karl and my therapist (Yes I have a therapist. Everyone should.) are always telling my how well I'm coping and dealing with the stress. It's finally sunk in. I am strong and doing the best I can with the situations I am given. I am marrying the man of my dreams in 2 days. Even though I have breakdowns and get sad, that is the light at the end of the tunnel. In 2 days I will be Mrs. Karl Bringhurst and that makes me full with joy. Wish me luck on this new endeavor! The next time I post from here I will be a married woman. :)